"iMMaNueL"

Friends

2006-08-22T11:05:00.000+08:00

friends are the people you turn to in your most saddest times... besides you family =)

Im glad to have good friends here in Singapore as well as Philippines

Thank you guys for being there! For all the laughter & all the gimiks... im happy that we dont have any sad moments or quarrels.. hehe.. basta everything for the laughs... im too lazy to update actually..

Anyway this is what's been happening to me the past few weeks.. hehe.. firstly, inamin ko na kay *** **** na crush ko sya.. hehehe.. im happy nga kasi mas open na ako sa kanya ngayon.. ewan ko lang ha, pero whenever we go out i really feel light (magaan ang loob).. haha.. then the rest of the gang in church is just as bubbly and lively and full of laughs.. ang saya tlga.. thank God im with them =)

Looking foreward for more Ice Skating, Guitar sessions, parties, gimiks... hehe..

Everything Changes

2006-08-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

ang daming bagay na nagbabago... haay... firstly, yung pagkawala ng fone ko.. hindi yung "fone" ang nawala kundi yung linya.. haha.. ah basta wala akong fone for the whole of july and its okay naman... siguro ang pangit lang na nangyari ay nung gigimik dapat kami nila Majo pero nagka-labulabu na kaya di nagkita sa Orchard...

next week, panay naman ang sorry namin sa isat-isa kasi nga di nagkita... pero the past is past na... hehehe.. masaya tlga kasama sila Joy Anne at Majo... nanood kaming tatlo ng movie last thursday, yung Tokyo Drift.. tapos ang saya tlga, before the movie nag dance dance pa kami... hehe.. after the movie naman tawa ng tawa kasi lahat ng makitang bagay na may gulong, meron kaagad na kwento.. hehehe.. ang saya grabe! Naghahanap nga kami ng mga Go-cart dito eh... ang alam lang namin yung sa Escape theme park.. hehe.. ah basta nakakasabik na magdrive!!! =)

Friday naman andun kami ng mga kapatid ko sa Downtown east para sa surprise party ni Jenalyn! hehe.. sad nga eh, di nakarating sila Joy Anne.. pero ok lang yun! the party is for Jena diba =) hehe... andun sila Aaron at Sheryl tapos after waiting for some time, dumating na sila Tami, Louise at birthday girl Jena =) hehe.. joke lang.. Masaya ang surprise party nya! hehe.. tapos kwentuhan and bonding and lots of alcoholic drinks.. pero HINDI ako uminom... hehe.. basta im 100% pure na tlga ngayon =) hehe.. billards kami ng todo kahit na mahal.. tapos bonding with Aaron din kasi mahilig din sya mag-gitara... enjoy tlga ang night...

Belated Happy Birthday to my dear friend Jenalyn!

Saturday naman ay gimik day! Firstly, meet namin ni Jr sila Joy Anne at Jessica sa yishun tapos tawa kami ng tawa, usap-usap, you know.. hehe.. punta kami kila Maruh... around 1pm yun.. hehe.. tapos pagdating kila Maruh andun na pala si Grace (new sa choir) at si Clet.. dun kaming lahat sa kwarto, bonding kami =) hehe.. gagawa pa nga kami ni Joy Anne ng modelling video eh.. hehe.. ang saya tlga, tapos ginagaya pa namin nila Jessica yung mga muka sa magazine... anyways, pinanood naming yung Dr. Bones na movie habang kumakain ng specialty ni Maruh, the ever-lasting Spaghetti.. hehehe.. after eating, di na namin tinapos yung movie and derecho kami sa kwarto para magpicturan.. hehe.. si Joy Anne tlga hyper! Tinuruan pa ako ng mga dance move nya dun sa mga hip hop songs.. tapos di naman ako makasabay kasi alam nyo na ako, singer lang hindi dancer.. hehe,.. joke lang.. basta ang saya tlga dun kila Maruh...

After some time, dumating na sila Karen at Krisha (correct spelling?) tapos kumain na sila... then bumaba na kami para magpainit dun sa mga bbq pit.. haha.. kasi ang taas pa pla ng araw.. so in the end, pumunta rin kami dun sa isang "gazebo" naks naman ang tawag, gazebo pa ha.. basta parang bahay kubo yun! hehe.. usap usap pa rin.. picturan.. tapos nag gitara pa kami ni Jr.. hehe.. tapos bago umalis nakabuo kami ng kanta, yung Harana, El Bimbo, at yung Dont touch my birdie.. hehe.. ang bastos.. pero masaya.. hmmm.. ahem ahem.. hehe.. anyways, dun kami umail si Jr kasi may mass pa.. iniwan namin sila kasi dun sila sa tagalog mass pupunta.. hehe..

Nakakatuwa yung misa kasi ang dami namin =) pero may bad news, looks like mawawala ang choir sa mga sunday mass kasi parang aalis ata si tita maris... ah basta the choir will never disband! hehe.. promise ko yan! =)

after the mass, bumaba kami sa basement for the fellowship.. nakita ko si Sheryl at si Miles.. hehe.. greeted them tapos umalis din... hmm.. sa basement naman, bonding kaming lahat.. hehe.. sila Karen kasi, first time nila ma-meet sila Joy Anne at si Jenalyn.. kaya ayun, masaya tlga =) tapos picturan kami ng picturan tapos pumunta pa kami sa stage para gumawa ng video.. hehe.. GRABE!!! nakakabaliw kasama si Joy Anne.. hehe.. basta! =) edi yun, natapos ang evening ng masaya... pero sila Jena at Louise umuwi ng maaga kasi wala pa sila mga tulog.. tapos kami naman inantay pa sila parents kasi kakain sa labas..

next time ko na ulit update ng todo! hehe.. tinatamad na... haaay... sabi ni Joy Anne, magonline daw sya ng 8pm pero hanggang ngayon wala pa rin...! hmmphh! hehe joke lang =) take care!!! wahehehehe!

im tired

2006-07-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

Haizz.. i cant find the right words...

im supposed to be doing this personal project of mine. something involving writing, because i love to write, haha.. but i cant get myself started...

schoolworks are murder also... haizz.. i want to pass with all the distinctions but i keep thinking that its too late.. finals are in 4 weeks time.. tsktsk.. time to get seriously busy...

im tired, i want to be in a farm, in a province, away from all these things in the city that makes life go super fast... haizz.. i guess all i need is some time off from all the distractions.. get myself all reset and straightened out.. haha.. nothing much, maybe just take a walk downstairs at this time of night.. lolzz.. joke.. im gonna sleep now...

happy birthday to my dad today! =)

its been a while...

2006-07-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time.. hehe.. lots of things happened to me..

first of all, i dont feel out of place anymore! hehe.. not in class, not in yfc.. because sometimes i just feel like im such a foreigner that i always feel out.. but not anymore i guess.. hehe.. i think i have been giving alot of my thinking of being different rather than thinking of how "in" i am.. haha.. im owel ok, so i guess im still good.. haha.. get what i mean?

YFC has been fun! we had a meeting yesterday and it was such a great time.. haha.. and i gets to talk to many people there.. haha.. because in the youth camp, i was super quiet.. haha.. anyways, it was great yesterday.. we went to Elisha's house, did some bonding stuff like ice breakers a.k.a. charade.. haha.. super fun..
then after that, we went to yishun church with ate "rhia" and ate Aika.. hehe.. so fun.. they became part of the choir also.. hehehe.. anyways, aika gets to meet tami, louise and jena.. looks like they know alot of people already.. waaah.. hehe.. so i think yesterday was fun =)

Ate Feh didnt sms yesterday, but she sms me today.. hehe.. actually just now at 7pm.. haizz.. my phone bill is still stalled so no incoming and outgoing.. hehe.. miss ko na talaga sya.. haizz.. i dont think i will be going back this september... pero i will make sure i will be there sa ILC next year! =)

Kachat ko si Rainbow a.k.a. Aika.. hehe.. sabi ko ang dami kong crush.. kasama na dun sila J** A*** at si J*** at pati na rin si ate F** hehehe.. secret! Masaya naman madaming crush ha.. as in, crush lang naman.. di naman seryoso or anything.. pati artista crush din naman pwede diba.. hmmm.. kay ok lang! hehehe..

Past few weeks was hectic.. fun & exciting.. but today was such a sucky day in the morning which turned out GREAT!!! hehe.. because i gets to take Liyana's number!!! wahehehehehe.. im super happy... Ok, Liyana is this malay girl in school, also from the mechanical engineering, and whenever i see her we keep smiling at each other so much and i dont know what to do most of the times... i always wanted to get her number but i dont have the courage to ask her.. hehe.. and this time, i asked Han Wei to get Liyana's number and he did.. wahahaha.. so now i dont know what to do with that number.. maybe im just gonna sell it.. ehehe.. just kidding..

life was fun.. until the time we need to go to school.. haha!

Problems

2006-06-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

I have such big problems recently... financial problems... ranging from my school tuition to my phone bill... haizz.. i dont know how i can help my parents but im gonna try to save up as much as i can starting today... i really got a problem with controlling my phone bill from going way up high... im just praying for help right now...

Missing You

2006-06-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

I have been rotting at home for 2 weeks now... and thankfully, someone was asking me out.. haha.. not like its a date, its Joy Anne asking me to come along with them to watch a movie.. yeah i admit, i do miss her.. hehehe.. because she hasnt been going to the choir for a few weeks now, 4 weeks actually.. haizz.. its been sad but im glad she didnt really forget me =) hehehe.. So we will be going out tomorrow to watch Scary Movie 4 with Jessica, Ness, Majo and i dunno who else...

Purpose Driven life has been giving me insights to what I really want with my life.. hmmm.. and its actually great =) hehe.. the great thing about this is that i can share what I understand about the chapters to someone, named Ate Feh... its been great.. we learn so much from sharing our views with each other, plus we also learn about each other's personalities...

God is really great =) hehe.. im glad i met a friend like her... and Joy Anne too.. hahaha!

2 week break

2006-06-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

I went to school yesterday, because i thought there were classes.. haha.. stupid me, im the only person in the engineering block and i walked around the area just to be sure, then i text my classmates, and it really is a 2 week break and not 1 week.. haizz.. hahaha! i feel so dumb =)

Its so fun! hehe... I have been reading The Purpose Driven Life book and ate Feh is my reading buddy.. hehe.. sounds crazy at first, but actually its very simple... we read the chapter for the day then we text each other to share our thoughts.. its been great because we wont have a one sided view on the topic... well, its just great.. hehe.. You people should start reading that book! hmmm.. we are on chapter 5 now..

Being close

2006-06-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

Someone wants me to be her friend again =) And that someone is none other than Leslie... yeah. the same Leslie who ripped my heart apart... the same Leslie who had no shame in having two boyfriends... the same Leslie whom i used to hate... yeah, used to... now i forgive her already and i believe im ready to move on! hehe.. she even told me about her boyfriend there.. but i wasnt hurt anymore, i was shocked that she would actually mention the guy's name in her email to me... pero im alright with that.. no more feelings, im sorry... hehe..

So she wants to be friends with me again, she was sharing her problems with me in her schooling and i keep on replying to her emails.. haha.. but no more humour, no more plastikan, i am showing her that no matter how hard she can try, we can never be super close again (like last time) haizz.. i feel sorry because i know she never did have a kuya to look after her.. and im that kuya.. but right now i just cant get myself to be close with her again... i want her to move on also =) and realize how deep that cut she made on me...

OMG!!! =)

2006-06-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hey ka text ko ng todo si ate Feh.. tapos ang dami kong nalaman.. hehe.. akala ko she's just a member ng yfc, yun pala provincial head sya ng Mindoro.. wow.. as in, grabe yun ha.. hehehe.. nakaka inspire nga sya kasi akala ko dapat matagal ka na sa yfc para maging isa sa mga leaders pero bago lang din sya eh.. hehe.. kaya ayun, sali na talaga ako ng yfc ngayon =)

Bukas na yung youth camp ng yfc dito.. hehe.. sa jurong, dun sa isa sa mga retreat house dun.. hmmm.. ang ganda talaga, perfect =) hehehe.. we are gonna be real yfc.. haha.. kahit sa simula ayaw ko pa, pero talagang inaayos ni God ang daan eh.. hehe.. naks!

Sabi ko nga kay Feh, kahit na di kami magkita sa September paguwi ko, ayos lang kasi magkikita rin naman next year sa ILC sa bohol.. hehe.. kasi nagplano na talaga kami kung san magkikita, eh ang problema ay sa Batangas lang ang alam nya na puntahan, tapos ako naman di ko alam ang mga lugar sa batangas, pano kaya yan.. hmmm.. plus may klase pa sya that time.. haizz.. sana talaga makapunta ako sa batangas or sa mindoro na mismo para mameet sya.. hehe..

Ganyan sya ka special sakin :-) naks! hehe.. hmmm.. i think magpapatulong ako kay ate Reva kung pupunta rin sya sa Mindoro.. hehe.. haaay ang saya talaga... u

Bonding

2006-06-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

Today is bonding day (not devil day) hahaha.. masaya ngayon!!! dami kong naging ka close eh...

First of all, bonding kami nila Wan, Zaidi, at Han Wei doon sa library kasi nag aral lang kami after the maths test.. hehe.. tapos pagkatapos ng aral, mga 1pm na, umalis na kami.. tapos punta kami ni Han Wei sa McDonalds tapos dun kami kumain.. hahaha.. nag share sya ng prublema nya about this girl he is courting.. hehe.. kasi pag naging sila, eh first na yun! kaya ayun, di nya alam kung pano sasabihin dun sa babae.. hehehe.. edu yun, nagshare din ako sa kanya ng mga sikreto ko sa buhay.. ang aking dark past.. wahahaha.. para kaming mga praning...

Tapos after i went home, nakita ko na-add na ako ni Ate Fe sa friendster... hehe.. si ate Fe yung nakilala ko doon sa Davao sa yfc na camp.. hehe.. tapos taga mindoro pa sya.. oh diba astig! Anyways, after a few while nag text sya... tapos nagtext na rin ako sa kanya... hehehe.. edi ayun, bonding kami.. la lang.. gusto ko lang sabihin na ANG SWEET NYA!!! wahehehehehe... crush na crush ko yun.. grabe.. ok ok relax lang.. hmmm.. basta sa september sabi namin try namin magkita kita nila ate Reva.. hehe.. haay ang saya talaga =) hehe...

Tapos the past 2 days, bonding rin kami ni Maruh.. hmmm.. nagkakaproblem sya and i dont know how i can help eh... basta txt txt na lang muna siguro.. pag nagkita kami sa friday or sunday, kakausapin ko na sya.. hehehe..

nag bigay ng testimonial si Kris... nasa australia na nga pala sya ah... hmmm.. miss ko na rin yun! hehe.. dati kaming tatlo nila joy ang magkakasama na gumimik eh.. haizz.. miss those days..

edi yun.. ang saya ko ngayon.. hehehe.. daming ka-close =)

Bwisit yang Love na yan! hehe!

2006-06-05T12:25:00.000+08:00

Haay bwisit na word yan.. hahaha.. minsan maganda, minsan nakakasakit.. oh diba ang gulo talaga.. pero ngayon im glad na single (not looking) ako.. hehe.. at finally, wala na sya sa system ko! hehehe.. masayahin na ulit ako =) yeah.. balik sa dati si Owel..

Ang saya nung saturday eve, kausap ko si beza.. haha.. grabe nakakabaliw sya.. as in, tawa ng tawa.. hehe.. nahahawa ako sobra.. saya nga eh.. hehe.. tapos today nakachat ko si tita Maan, kwentuhan kami.. you know.. chika minute.. hehehe.. ang saya ng buhay.. minsan di ko nakikita kung gano kaganda ang life ko, puro galit kasi nasa loob ko.. at least ngayon im feeling better na.. i can smile na ulit.. hehe..

Tapos after the mass nga pala, kahapon, nagkausap kami ni maruh... chikahan lang.. hehe.. loveless nga kami pareho eh.. wahahaha.. anyways, andun din si aaron.. wow.. hehe.. bagong hairstyle nya ah, bagay pare.. ako nga magpapahaba na rin ng buhok para kamuka ko si Kamikazee.. hahaha.. astig yung banda na yun..

Im here at home ngayon, blogging.. ay natanggap ko yung testi ni Joy.. haha.. ang sweet nya talaga.. ah basta, masaya din pala dito sa singapore kahit maliit lang sya.. hehe... mga classmates ko nga pala nagbabalak mag clubbing daw kami.. hmmm.. parang corny eh.. kasi nga kaklase ko nga chekwa na hindi cool.. hehehe.. oops just kidding.. diba pag nag clubbing dapat medyo cool at may porma.. hmmm.. basta pag pupunta sila sasama na nga rin ako! hehehe..

2006-06-04T11:20:00.000+08:00

webcam! =)

Mga pangyayari this week

2006-06-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

dami nagyari this week ha...

first of all, di ko na matandaan kung san ako magsisimula.. haha.. anyways, and saya sa class kasi nakaka-cope na ulit ako.. parang last year din.. hehe.. ang ganda nga eh, nirerespeto na ako ng mga kaklase ko.. as in, i made a good stand na.. and thats great...

tapos naka chat ko si leslie kahapon... sabi nya kalimutan ko na lang daw ang mga nangyari.. hello! pwede ba yun? Eh mga kaaway ko sa pinas ng mga 6 years ago eh di ko pa kinakalimutan, tapos sya kakalimutan kahit 2 weeks pa lang ang nakaraan? NEVER... alam ko masama ito, im trying my best not to think of the past pero talagang nasa dugo ko na yun.. haizz.. i dont think i can forgive her eh, ginago nya ako.. and i cant do anything about it... galit ako sa kanya...

pero we cant do anything about the past na diba... and im glad im out of the relationship kasi talagang niloloko lang nya ako and di ko gusto ang ganun..

pero ngayon, wala nang sakit.. hehe.. wala na akong nararamdaman.. pero galit pa rin ako sa kanya.. haha.. haay ewan ko ba... ang bait nga ng mga kaibigan ko dito eh, full support sila.. hehe.. di lang dito noh, pati nga si bezz ang bait din.. hehehe.. basta im glad im out of the mess na.. hehehe..

Ngayon dapat tatawag ako kay beza pero may ginagawa daw sya kaya baka bukas na lang.. hmmm.. hehe.. la lang, last time ko nakausap sya ay december pa.. nung december 24... hehe.. half a year na rin ha...

galit pa rin ako

2006-05-30T17:30:00.000+08:00

Kahit daanin sa dasal, mahirap pa rin kalimutan ang mga nangyari... talagang nasaktan ako ng sobra.. kahit na sabihin ko sa sarili ko na nakalimutan ko na, hindi pa rin eh... masakit pa rin pag iniisip... haizz... why does it have to be me... fuck talaga, wala syang kwenta... galit pa rin pala talaga ako sa kanya..!

Blind

2006-05-30T17:25:00.000+08:00

I took a peep at her profile and saw the picture of her and her guy... oh man... im so stupid lah... now im feeling something again... haizz... i dont know why its so freaking hard to move on and forget her... haizz... life sucks alot...

Spanish lesson was great actually... the teacher commended my group over the rest so that means we did well... We managed to push through by doing alot of adlibs, aka playing the songs of the artists that were presenting on... it was great... so today was the end of the Spanish class and on June 27 is the next IS, where i took the Psychology in Creativity... Surprisingly, Desiree is also in my class! =) Im glad I wont feel left out since i know somebody there already...

i should not have looked lah... ruined my mood today... i thought i moved on, but somehow, it still hurts inside... hmmm i have been feeling alot of mixed emotions lately, sometimes i am happy, sometimes im not... haizz... i hate this... if i managed to get myself back together again, i think i will become a stronger person...

Bernard Dominic

2006-05-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

My mom tells me in too emotional... like, when someone tells me his/her problem, i keep thinking about them too much even though its not my problem... haha.. i think thats also why i am such a blur ass... haha.. there is too much inside my brain.. lolzz.. not only in problems.. i also worry alot.. haha.. especially to people i love.. wahehehehe... enough of me! haha..

Anyways, i have some great news... Bernard Dominic is born! hehehe.. last saturday only.. First son of tito Emi and tita Marina.. hehe.. congrats po!!! =)

Tomorrow is the last lesson in Spanish.. hehe.. i learned alot of spanish even if its just a crash course, total of 6 lessons only... the teacher is great, my classmates are great (and crazy) hahaha.. lessons are really fun.. thats why im gonna miss them alot... haaay...

There is too much distractions in school.. hahaha.. too many crushes & not enough time to flirt around.. joke... im just glad God put me in Ngee Ann... i LOVE the scenery.. hahahaha! just kidding! *winks*

Im moving on already =) i sms leslie, just asking how she is.. and she replied! hehe.. im so happy... im glad our friendship wasnt that damaged... but please, no more of that love thing... haha..

One Week Thing

2006-05-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

This week was great! hehe.. first was all that break up thing, my family went to watch x-men 3 friday evening... it was cool.. hahaha.. i wanna have power too.. hekhek.. Then last night was the concert in church... it was fun, there were 20 of us there and i believe the filipino choir did great... there were alot of good comments on our 2 songs.. hehe.. even if we only sang 2 songs, and the other choirs sang 3 and more, i think we did super great...

So tomorrow is another week... haay... im really bored going to school already.. haha.. i feel like doing something new in life instead of living in monotony.. hmmm.. new hobbies maybe? =) hehe.. anything lah.. just to keep me occupied during my free time...

Yesterday we bought the Command & Conquer The First Decade... its like, ALL the games of C&C since 1996 were compiled into a 10Gb dvd.. hahaha.. advertisement.. anyways, playing Generals was great... my first time playing it...

Next saturday is the filipino mass again.. haha.. time flies super fast here in singapore...

In God's Hands

2006-05-25T18:50:00.000+08:00

I believe my life is really in God's hands... I believe in this great plan God has for me... I got into the lives of my friends, of my cousins, and they are such blessings to me already... I just hope i did something in their lives that made them better, stronger or even happier... hehe...

So if I really have to be in another relationship (how bad it will turn out) then I can can be... If God wants me to touch someone's life, to be emotionally attached to someone again, then I will gladly do it... hehe... I actually learned alot with Leslie... Im not scared of getting hurt anymore... Its the only way we grow up & learn!

I understand life better now =)

If you love someone, love that person with all your heart...

I recovered fast =)

2006-05-25T18:20:00.000+08:00

I wont really call it a suffering... its all over and i can't do much about it... it hurts alot at first but i slept over it and i woke up next morning ang its all gone... hehehe.. i can evern joke about it to my classmates..

Rewind... what actually happened after i wrote the previous post was I sms my cousin (ate Charmaine) and then i sms Joy and i called her... hehe.. they are such good friends.. =)

So i felt alright already... somehow i also pity her because i dont want her to grow up to be a bitch (get what i mean?) hehe.. i really do care for her.. i dont want her to get used to changing BF's like changing clothes... but its her choice in life lah.. i cant do anything more about it, except pray that she will still change... Hey, come to think of it, i do pity her because she doesnt have any parents anymore (they passed away already) and all she gets to talk to is her cousin (which has the same maturity as her). So in the end, they both land themselves confused and without direction... and their decisions in life tend to be immatured... thats how she will grow up.. and i just hope she will change SOON!!! haaay... i feel sorry for her lah... i wish i can still take care of her.. haha.. but not as a BF or stuff like that, maybe as a big bro... hehehe.. her attitude SUCKS! she thinks its not her fault to cheat... haha.. hey, she also cheated her other BF right.. hahaha.. terrible..

So i am alright now... im SINGLE once again... hehe.. and NO GF for me UNTIL I GRADUATE (hehe.. i keep saying this and i keep getting into relationships!)

BREAK UP

2006-05-23T18:15:00.000+08:00

Isang iglap nawala ang lahat... nalaman ko na lang na may mahal pala syang iba...

sounds like a fairy tale right, pero totoo yan... break na kami ni Leslie... and i was such a fool to hope too much from her... what can i say, i was inlove with her too much... and she didnt even have the guts to tell me that its never gonna be us... she gave me lots of hope, she said YES to me and i became her boyfriend... only to find out that she was just playing with my heart all along... naging kami eh, yun pala sa loob nya naaawa lang sya sa akin.. tapos WORSE, may BF na pala syang iba!!! Do you all know how deep a cut like that is? =(

I cant blog now... not yet... i feel SO hurt as in sobra talaga..!! just now i felt like im gonna die.. i cried alot.. i really cried alot... and it hurts to know the truth... Leslie really is heartless... please Lord, give me the strength to forgive her... because seriously, right now, i really cant... I want to share something lang, i have this some kind of curse behind me... im serious... People who mistreat me tend to have SUPER bad luck in the long run... if that's so, then she will have a terrible future talaga...

So lord, take this pain away from me.. take my anger, take me up with you and make me a better person, i dont want to curse anybody anymore... pero sana lang ha, matuto sya sa mga maling mga ginawa nya sakin... nasaktan talaga ako.. grabe, it hurts like hell sobra!!! i cant stop crying kanina, pero ngayon medyo maayos na ako... haaay...

2006-05-16T08:14:00.000+08:00

Leslie and Owel - bus ride going to manila

To me, love is...

2006-05-16T07:45:00.000+08:00

Love is Acceptance
Love is Patience
Love is Trust

If love is really all those things, then i need to change na talaga... hehe... kulang pa kasi ako sa mga ganyan eh... nag away kami and it really affected the relationship... hmmm.. pero oayus na kami the next day, somehow we went back to what we were like last time... hehe.. ang hirap pala maging open about your past, kasi ang lakas ko mag react... haizz.. kaya nga acceptance diba... love her for who she is, not for what she went through in the past.. hmm.. isa pa yung issue ng being far away from each other... kasi minsan talagang miss mo na yung tao pero wala kang magawa kasi di mo naman sya makikita ng basta basta diba... kaya kailangan ng patience... kahit na sa december pa kami magkikita eh willing ako maghintay... wala naman magbabago eh... lastly, yung pag iisip ng kung ano-ano.. yan ang sumisira sa mga relationship nowadays, yung kakulangan ng trust.. kasi once na nag doubt ka na sa partner mo, edi unti unti na rin mawawala ang lahat... Trust is the foundation of every relationship eh.. kaya ako, di ko hinahayaan mag isip ng mga bagay... lalo nang magkalayo kami edi mas madami kang maiiisip diba... pero i trust her (and myself) naman eh.. na kakayanin namin ito.. hehe.. kahit na sabihin ng buong mundo na bawal ang relationship ng mag pinsan! I dont care anymore... eh mahal ko sya eh, may magagawa ba kayo?!

God must always be in the center of your relationship kasi pag di kayo nakafocus kay God, its not going to turn out okay... always pray and always do the right things... maintain a healthy relationship palagi...

7th Heaven

2006-05-02T08:10:00.000+08:00

you guys dont know how happy i am to finally have met her.. hehe.. after 4 long months.. di ko kayang i-describe ang mga pangyayari sa words.. hehehe.. basta grabe tlga~!! =)

im really happy ^.^

hope to see her sa December...

I messed things up!

2006-03-30T08:30:00.000+08:00

First of all, i scored low this term... a very disappointing GPA 2.667 which means i dropped from almost perfect last term from 3.9 down to a below average this 2nd term (GPA range is from 0 to 4)... haizz.. i sux too much already. I believe that it really depends on hard work and not just on intellect... haizz.. since i dont have both of those, im getting low grades!

Then it turns out the school starts on April 24!!! which means, I WILL BE ABSENT FOR THE FIRST WEEK!!! haizz.. anyways, i cant book again since it will cost precious money.. so i emailed my teacher yesterday.. haha.. warn him in advance... maybe later i will email all the rest of my module lecturers so they will know... hmmm... and so from that comes the problem of buying the books and lecture notes... hope i can get one of my classmates to buy for me first...

Lastly, hmmm.. no more lastly.. hahaha.. thats all of my problems... im actually excited and worried at the same time in leaving tomorrow... because i will be going to Manila by bus and then switch to taxi to get me home... haha.. i dont really know where to go and what to do when im there... but im happy its like that.. if not then it will be very boring! hahaha...

Yesterday i finished buying the last remaining stuff that i would bring to philippines.. hehe.. including the gift for my special someone.. hahaha.. im excited =)

Big plans ahead

2006-03-27T08:55:00.001+08:00

Its been great... actually i didnt think that it would be this happy a LDR would be.. hehe.. nah.. im just glad i found someone who just takes things as they are and accepts everything that comes her way... hehe.. i wish i had that kind of strength... come to think of it, she's been through a LOT of tough things.. look at me, im living a life of luxury, life where i can always get what i wanted.. haizz.. i need to grow up :-)

So i will be going to Philippines on friday, and i will stay there until April 29... its a very long vacation where I can be alone.. haha.. and do some "soul searching" haha.. and ofcourse, meet up with someone special.. *sighs* hopefully everything will turn out good :-) hehe..

Last night i was chatting with Jena, and we shared alot of stuff in our l0ve life & experiences and shared some thoughts and advices.. things like that.. hahaha.. she's one person i can easily understand, and who can understand me.. i hope.. hehe.. so its great.. hmmm.. well, nothing much to say already.. hehe..

What i will be doing in Pinas:
1) attend a YFC youth camp in Davao City
2) join the whole lector family in the Bisita Iglesia
3) swimming sa beach with them also
3) meet someone special ^.^
4) meet Maruh (not sure yet..)
5) meet my long lost berks in CSQC
6) meet Kenneth Benoza! (haha.. sana nga)
7) help renovate the condo
8) buy the habilins/pasalubongs
9) buy radio (so i wont get bored at home)
10) cry when its time to leave >.<

sad (mixed emotions)

2006-03-20T12:10:00.000+08:00

haizz... sad na ako, ewan ko ba... ang dami kasing kasabay ng mga long dist relationships diba... di naman yun na nahihirapan ako, naiinis lang ako kasi ang layo ko sa kanya... tapos ang communication ang complicated kasi mahal yung nga tawag, kaya paminsan-minsan lang ako nakakatawag...

Kagabi nag chat kami, tapos ang dami nyang problema about her schooling... haizz.. i wish i can help man lang kahit papano diba, pero ano ba naman magagawa ko? Kahit na yakapin sya at sabihin na maayos din ang lahat eh di ko magawa... haizz... pero ganun naman talaga eh, magkalayo kasi... lam nyo, kagabi ko lang naramdaman yung parang "need" na makita ko na sya.. haaaay... pag-ibig talag oh...

Anyways, tuwing naguusap kami sa phone ang saya ko... pag nagtetext sya, buo na kaagad araw ko... haaay! hehehe.. di ko nga ma-explain minsan eh, yung mga nararamdaman ko.. hehe.. basta wala akong pakialam, magkikita kami pag uwi ko sa April... hmmmm.. minsan nga ramdam ko na kahit magkalapit kami eh parehas din ang mangyayari diba... Kasi pag nandun ako sa Pilipinas, di rin naman ako makakapunta sa probinsya ng mag-isa kasi di ko alam papunta sa kanila.. hehehe.. kaya pag holiday din lang kami magkikita... parehas din lang pala kahit andito ako sa Singapore... hmmmm.. ayan, nagmuka akong sira ulo! hehe.. kakasalita tungkol sa mga nararamdaman ko... hehe.. pero at least nailabas ko na ang nasa loob ko.. hehe..

Dont worry naman people, kontento naman ako dito sa relationship namin... yun nga lang, naiinis ako kasi ang layo ko...! haaay... its God's way siguro na patatagin kami diba.. hehehe.. kaya im not complaining na nga! tama na nga! hehehe.. Mahal na mahal ko yang si Leslie! heheh.. malayo man eh malapit naman sa puso.. naks! =) ang baduy talaga...... haha..

Give me an R!!!

2006-03-18T12:45:00.000+08:00

RIVERMAYA!!! wow ang saya talaga kahapon... hehe... kasi hindi lang sa maganda yung concert nila, nandun pa ALMOST ALL ng pinoys ka kilala ko.. haha.. dito sa Singapore, konti lang pinoys pero im glad to see alot of them out there yesterday... hehe.. andun ang group nila Joy, nila Joy Anne, nila Tami, nila Ian, nila Aaron... basta ang daming tao.. haha.. masaya talaga, di ko nga alam kung saan ako lulugar eh.. hahaha..

basta update ako ulit mamaya pag "feel" ko na magupdate.. hehehe..

one last thing: astig ang concert.. sana madami pang ganito! Kasi nga diba, nagkakasama-sama ang mga pinoys...

CONCERT, PARTY, & SIMBANG GABI brings the Pinoys together...

ay onga pala, na upload na niya yung pictures nya nung prom night nila... wahehehehe! Ang ganda nya grabe!!! naka blue gown.. hehehe... basta tignan nyo na lang... u know who she is naman eh...!

love life? =)

2006-03-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.. wag na lang yung love life.. its too personal.. hahaha.. basta uuwi ako sa April, try ko makita sya ulit! hehehe.. pag hindi talaga, edi ok lang.. hehe.. magkikita pa naman sa December diba... Anyways, parang almost sure na na magkikita eh.. kaya ayun, im praying hard talaga.. hehe :-) ang magandang part, birthday pa nya! hehe.. kaya SANA!!! please... SANA TALAGA magkita kami kahit sandali lang...

wala na akong hihilingin pa... haaaay =p

Updates!

2006-03-14T15:55:00.000+08:00

Last friday i went out with Joy (broken angel) and Kris and Joanne.. we went to lucky pplaza, la lang.. hehe.. naka uniform pa sila! wow.. akala ko naka itim nanaman.. hehe.. joke.. tapos nag shopping si Joy ng kanyang white top tapos pag try nya, grabe! ganda nya! hehe.. bagay sayo ang white!!! hehehe.. Kumain pa kami sa Kabayan, galit pa yung nagtitinda dun kasi ang bagal namin mag order.. wahehehe.. pero aus naman, busog.. si Joy ang lakas kumain! waaaah... may kanin na, may spagetti pa.. di ko kaya un.. joke.. hehe.. basta masaya naman.. nag walk around kami ng far east (tama ba?) hehe.. tapos tumingin ng mga damit.. as mentioned earlier, yung white top nga! hehe.. bagay talaga! Anyways, tumingin pa kami ng mga damit na pang punk/gothic.. haha.. la lang, window shopping lang kasi mga walang mga pera.. lolzz.. tapos un umuwi na kami, nag mrt...

SATURDAY naman, i went out with Joy Anne & Jessica... nag "hip hop" dance class kami.. punta kami ng raffles, tapos lakad ng malayo.. wahehehe.. masaya ang class! kaso nga lang mahal talaga... $25 per session pag hindi naka register.. eh 1 hour lang isang session.. kaya un, mahal.. hehe.. pero masaya naman.. stretching pa lang, di na namin kaya.. waaaaah... tapos may pasikot-sikot pa! grabeh... hahaha.. di ako maka sayaw, katabi ko si Joy Anne, tapos napapa-OMG na lang ako... ang galing nya! waw naman! hehehe.. ang swabe nya sumayaw.. naks!!!! hehehehe.. kami ni Jessica, tawa ng tawa.. hehehe.. tapos after ng hip hop, kumain kami sa Subway, tapos nag mrt kami.. hehe.. aun, bumaba si Joy Anne sa orchard kasi may "photoshoot" pa sya.. hehe.. este, project work kasi nga diba media studies sya.. hehe.. edi kami ni Jessica pauwi ng sembawang.. haha.. sa mrt grabe!! tawa kami ng tawa!!! sobra tlga.. parang baliw ako!! hahaha.. kasi si Jessica sobra mag joke, as in sakit na ng abs ko.. haha..

evening naman, kita namin si Ness sa house nya... kasi hindi muna kami umuwi ni Jessica, pinuntahan namin si Ness... tapos yun nag chat pa sila ng mga freinds nila... in the end, pinuntahan muna namin si Mico (tama spelling?) yung isang pinoy sa sembawang din.. aun nag basketball muna bago umulan.. haha.. fun naman.. tapos punta kami ng Sun Plaza nag dance-dance pa sila.. haha.. di ko kaya, nood lang ako.. hehehe.. edi aun.. umuwi ako around 7pm na, silang dalawa hang out pa sa bahay nila ness.. haha.. sakit ng paa ko!!!

ang saya talaga.. hmmmm.. pero di ba kayo nagtataka, bakit di ko nababanggit si Leslie??? hehehe.. sige na, kwento ko na nga "love life" ko!.. wahheehehe.. abangan ang aking next post! =)

uuwi ako!!!

2006-03-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

UUWI AKO!!!! wow... hehehe.. okie naman kila mama at papa.. at mas okey sakin kasi this time im gonna prove to myself na pwede naman ako mapagisa... haha.. la lang... masaya sana yun... pero di pa ako naka-book ng flight eh.. hmmm.. basta sa April yun.. yeah.. i cant wait.. hehehe..

2006-02-22T19:13:00.000+08:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

friendly, introverted, nervous, quiet

Blind Spot

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able, accepting, adaptable, cheerful, clever, complex, dependable, giving, helpful, independent, ingenious, intelligent, knowledgeable, logical, loving, mature, modest, patient, religious, sentimental, shy, silly, tense, trustworthy, witty

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(known only to self)

organised, sensible

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(known to nobody)

bold, brave, calm, caring, confident, dignified, energetic, extroverted, happy, idealistic, kind, observant, powerful, proud, reflective, relaxed, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, spontaneous, sympathetic, warm, wise

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2006-02-21T13:50:00.000+08:00

Ay nag meet kami ni Joy (broken angel) sa library sa woodlands.. haha.. kasi tumawag sya, magpapaturo daw ng physics.. hehehe.. hirap naman talaga nun subject na yun.. hehe.. anyways, masaya naman.. hehe.. aral kami about yung prism at yung mga critical angle.. hehehe.. pati ako naguluhan sa mga tinuituro ko eh.. lolzz.. pero maayos naman..

dami tumitingin samin sa library, ksi ang lakas ng boses ni joy.. pag nagtatanong, pag nagkukwento, basta ang ingay namin..! wahehehe! pero ayus lang yun noh.. ay, one thing na napansin ko.. ang payat nya!!! as in very slim pala sya.. hehe.. di pansin kapag naka pang-alis.. sa school uniform nya, grabe.. almost scary kasi talagang ang payat.. wahehehe... no offence.. maybe dahil yun sa nagkasakit sya last week.. hmmm..

edi yun.. hehe.. tapos kumain kami sa McDo sa causeway point.. pansin ko, she keeps talking about Gerrard.. hmmm... wahehehe.. may naaalala! memories.. wahehe.. kilig.. lolzz.. joke lang..

edi yun, natapos ang araw, at least sana naman may natutunan sya sa pag tulong ko sa physics nya.. haha.. to all the people, im open na mag tutor sa coming holidays ko (march and april) hahaha... libre na, masaya pa.. naks! i think im gonna be a teacher pag laki ko.. haha..!

2006-02-17T18:30:00.000+08:00

I was reading my past posts here in my blog and i was super ashamed of myself.. hmmm.. its the part about talking bad about someone.. hmm.. try reading the first 2 weeks in the archives.. haizz.. go! read it!!!

....... ano, tapos na? ( wahehhe.. suplado noh?!)

told you i can say bad things to people.. well, that was when i was really hurt & brokenhearted.. haha.. i moved on.. and forgiven them... hmmm..

Anyways, i also realized that I keep WANTING to go to places where my "heart" wants me to go... like NOW, i want to go to Philippines to see her... haha... a few months ago, i keep telling myself how much "inlove" I am to Singapore that I want to stay here.. haha.. all i can say is that i have a crush on someone living here back then.. i cant remember.. lolzz..

anyways, i decided not to PLAN too much in the future, as in tell myself where i would be living and working after I graduate... man! thats a long term vision... haha.. I dont even know what to do with my exams next week... hahaha.. so i wont care too much now, just live each day to the fullest and not look back, not look too much into the future... just stay contented NOW >.<

hmmm.. pls dontate some money to me.. i need to buy IDD cards... wahahaha!

2006-02-15T18:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i think i moved on from blogging already, as in i dont blog that often... less and less na.. haha.. i dont feel emotionally insecured nowadays, thank God.. hmmmm.. maybe its because im moving on to another part of my life.. yung parang di na mashado nagiisip ng mga mangyayari sa future, yung living each day & taking things slowly.. hehe.. tutal, wala naman mangyayari pag magmamadali ako...

as always, lets talk about LOVE.. haha.. valentines mood kasi eh.. hahahaha! Dami ko napagdaanan: may malay na babae na nang two-time sa akin.. tapos si beza naman twice naging kami tapos twice din kami nag break up.. hmm.. hindi rin talaga magwowork out kahit pano.. wahahaha! (tumawa eh noh? sira ako talaga) Syempre masakit pag iiwanan ka.. pero sa case ko, long distance relationships.. haha.. kaya madali rin maghilom ang "wounded heart" BWAHAHAHA! ang baduy.. pero ganun talaga...

And now im into a relationship na itetreasure ko ng sobra.. hehe.. eto talaga feel ko na special sya talaga eh.. LESLIE!!! haaay.. kasi naman, na-inlab kaagad ako eh 3 days pa lang kami nagkita.. tapos yearly ko lang sya makikita, hopefully every christmas.. haaaay buhay... last month, around early january, parang nanghihina ako kasi gutom pala (JOKE).. hindi, nanghihina ako kasi iniisip ko na baka umulit nanaman ang mga nangyari sa buhay ko dati... PERO mali nanaman ako eh... kasi nawawala ang "trust" ko sa aming dalawa.. haaaay... kaya that time nagdasal talaga ako, ask ako ng answers.. hmmm.. pero wala eh.. hehe.. joke! Basta maayos na ako ngayon! Eto na lang masasabi ko:

HINDI na ako matatakot sa future! (naks! tlga?)
HINDI na ako mapupuno ng doubt about sa amin!
At higit sa lahat...
HINDI ako susuko! kahit ano mangyari! (hehe!!!)

kaya naman, basta may kasamang dasal =)

2006-02-13T17:50:00.000+08:00

One More Moment
by Ronin (a Singaporean local rock band)

Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out on the clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory

And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

2006-02-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! wahehehehe...

ang saya ng birthday ko! haizz.. kahit na malayo sya... nasa Lucena.. hahaha.. anyways, try ko nga pumunta ng Pinas para sa birthday nya.. haha.. sana pwede.. lolzz.. pero siguro pag ganun, sobrang obvious na! hehehe.. lagot ako pag mahuli ng "authorities" lolzz!

Eh masaya naman, today went fine.. in school only a few people know my birthday but its alright.. hehehe.. then alot of people sms me, greeted me.. im so happy... tsktsk.. *tears of joy* wahehehehe..

Later im gonna call her...

:-)

2006-02-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

Tagalog mass was held yesterday... I tried to invite Pinoys to go but they keep saying "I will try" which means "I WONT GO"... hmmm... why do people "try" to saythings to make you feel good. Why wont they just say the truth... tsktsk... Pag mga gimik naman ready sila lumakad, pero pag SIMBA ayaw nila! Siguro next month, I will work extra hard to make then come back to the church pero di ko naman sila pipilitin, hmmmm.. maybe by example i can convince them all to be church-goers, even sa mga tagalog mass lang, once again...

Kagabi gusto ko tawagan si Leslie pero ayaw naman nya... hmmm.. tapos in the end sabi ko tatawag ako around 10pm sabi nya ok daw at iintayin nya ako... pero antok na sya nun kaya she doesnt want me to call anymore... Siguro nga concerned talaga sya sa akin... haizz.. palagi naman ako ganito eh, namimilit ng todo tapos in the end ako ang nababad-trip... hmmm.. Di pa ako matured enough talaga.. hehehe.. :-) masakit talaga ang feeling, parang nireject ako kagabi eh, pero ayus lang yun! hehe.. Love is supposed to be like this... di palagi masaya... hmmm..

320 days to Christmas!!! :-) miss her na talaga...

2006-01-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

Ay nakaka bad trip talaga!!!

Lumabas sila Tami, Joy, Ian, at John... di man lang ako inaya?!?! grabe naman.. bad trip talaga...

kausap ko kanina si Maruh at Faith, kakasabi lang nila sakin.. haay naku... basta pag lalabas kami, di sila kasale.. wahahahaha! Gantihan na talaga.. bad trip eh.. hmmmm.. JOKE LANG PO :-) hehehehe..

Madami pala Aquarius dito sa singapore:

me, glam & grace, faith, van......... and the list goes on... si dayo, si ate jing-jing, ate eyen, kuya carl... hmmmm.. sino pa ba.... MADAMI!!! wahahahahaha...

2006-01-24T19:50:00.000+08:00

I'm D.E.A.D.

I mean, I am soooooo WASTED... I FAILED an IAC assessment!!! What the hell is that??? I mean, IAC stands for Individual and Community which is held once every 2 weeks... I am not supposed to fail something like that... I suck...

So i am assessing the damage I have done to my grades and I am planning a very "fool-proof", or so it seems, effective study plan on which i can finish my work... haizz... i wish!

But it doesnt matter... im happy with my life now that I learned how to smile, and laugh, and love... haha!

2006-01-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

Missing someone has never been so fun! Yupz its fun simply because i love her...

hehe... Okay im not denying it anymore! :-p

2006-01-16T19:30:00.000+08:00

I used to be happy with my life...

But why nowadays, my mood goes UP and DOWN so damn much!!! One day i will be glad in my life... then all of a sudden, i will feel super depressed... i think with my life like this, i need to do more fulfilling things... Singapore is such a material & self centered place, Lord please guide me... dont make me become just another boy lose in my own world...

I hate this feeling...

My weekend was good... my Mondays are always terrible...

"I know how to smile, but i forgot what it feels to be truly happy."

I will always keep in mind that we are never meant to be truly happy on earth, because we are not meant to be here for eternity... I think i need to serve God more, and live a fulfilling life... in that way i can be happy & serve God at the same time... One last thing: I'm glad to be a Catholic!

2006-01-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

i feel sad lately... so i skipped school today just to be alone and seclude myself from the world... big mistake... its just made that feeling of loneliness worse. But its alright lah, im okay now and i think i should be around with more people because being alone wont do any good.. hmmm..

I have come up with a proposal... there should be more family migrating here in Singapore! haha.. as in from the Lector or/and the Paune families... lolzz..

Haizz.. im gonna blog more often now and just throw all my frustrations into the keyboard and into this blog.. wahahahaha.. peace, out!

2006-01-11T19:50:00.000+08:00

Its been fun these past few days... hahaha! Sometimes i feel sad, most of the times im feeling happy especually when we text each other lah.. hehe..

Anyways, I got my results already... I did terribly bad.. not as i wanted lah.. I got 78 for my Electronics, hmmmm 80 for my Maths and i think its 74 for my engineering mechanics... haizz! I really feel terrible BUT im still happy since i passed all.. But i want to get 90+ because i WANT to beat Kelvin.. hahaha.. im honest ok! Thats what i am aiming for.. hehe.. DONT LOOK DOWN ON FILIPINOS...

Im feeling a bit guilty for not focusing on my studies this semester... tsktsk.. I better catch up NOW if i want to pass my exams which is in 6 weeks time!!! wah lao... scary...

hmm..

lalalala.. i feel like singing already!!! hahahaha.. :-)

2006-01-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

Its been raining all day today. But we didnt do much really. Just lie around, play computer games and stuff like that, played guitar... I woke up at 10am, sms Leslie, then she replied :-) and then ate breakfast, and wasted the whole day doing nothing. That is my life here... I thinki need to do more "productive" things like cleaning, reading books, studying... haha.. but i really dont have the "drive" to do things like that... im a slacker, and MAYBE i will forever be one! hehehe.. joke..

Yesterday, Estelle Joy was asking for my help in her school project about a debate on whether EM3 streaming in Primary 4 kids should be banned. We dont know any friends from EM3 so I acted like i was one.. hehe.. but all my answers in her survey was factual. Because i got the help of my brothers and my mom and my personal experience as well... my brothers had friends in EM3 last time, we have a cousin from EM3 as well... as for me, my close friend in A9 (surizwan) is from em3 last time.. hahaha.. it was fun.. she sent me the report and it was quite good :-)

Looks like 6 weeks will fly by really fast and im gonna be YEAR 2 soon!!! wahahahaha... actually i want to start working already... i am sick of school... but for the meantime i will study harder and catch up with all the work i owe to my lecturers... hahaha..

Looking foreward to a successful year 2006 :-)

God bless everyone!!! hehe..

2006-01-06T07:45:00.000+08:00

Finally the common tests are over.. hehe.. but we are left 6 weeks before the finals so it wont be much to celebrate about... lolzz..

I have been praying lately.. la lang.. hehe.. just wanna ask God some questions and i think i already got the answers that i need..

Leslie!!! miss na kita.. hahaha..

let me think.. hmm.. 350+ days.. hehehe!

Grabe nakakalungkot dito..! gusto ko sumigaw..!

2006-01-03T19:35:00.001+08:00

ang boring nanaman sa bahay.. haaay.. kasi umalis na sila ninong manny kanina lang.. sad nga eh.. 4 days lang sila dito tapos alis kaagad... Edi magisa nanaman ang pamilya ko dito sa Singapore for the rest of the year.. haizz.. sad nga talaga.. tapos ang tagal pa ng pasko.. kasi nga diba babalik kami sa pinas sa pasko pa.. haaaaay..

malungkot talaga dito sa Singapore...

nakaka-depress nanaman ang feeling.. ewan ko kung bakit ganito palagi tuwing galing sa bakasyon.. haizz.. pero sana maayos ko na buhay ko ngayon..

i hope 2006 will go by very very fast...

2006-01-03T18:40:00.000+08:00

Single pa rin naman ako ha... kasi nga diba tapos muna ng pagaaral bago magkaGF... hahaha.. di naman magiging mataas ang grado ko kung di ako naka-focus sa pagaaral eh... kaya tama pa rin ang mga magulang ko.. pagaaral muna bago ang paglalaro.. oh diba! hahaha..

2006-01-03T16:45:00.000+08:00

Bad Day
by Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

2006-01-01T18:15:00.000+08:00

Leslie...

i miss her so much!!! hahaha.. she's my new found friend (and text mate) back in Pinas...

i only met her when she went to Tiaong this december 23, then we all spend Christmas there.. hehe.. its very fun! On Christmas eve I gave her a prank call because she didnt know my number at that time.. it was fun.. hehe.. memories.. then we all went to Church on Christmas eve.. it was cold.. then she took my arms, and i held her hand.. hehe.. that was really the sweetest...

But on the 25th, in the morning, she left early so we really didnt have much time to chit chat... hehehe.. but that doesnt matter! There is always SMS right? hehe.. so we spent our days there in the Philippines texting each other from morning till night.. hehehe.. she's really sweet and fun and nice... sadly i gotta go back here in Singapore at december 27... haizz.. really sad..

But no worries, we still sms each other.. haha.. i went to make my phone in auto roam so she can txt me anytime with 1 peso per txt.. haha.. thats super great!!!

So until next Christmas, i shall keep in contact :-)

Miss ya so much!

358 days :-)

2005-12-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

its a joyous season talaga this december.. bakit? kasi lumabas ako with Joy, Kris and later that day Joanne... hahaha..

Yesterday, we all went out to walk around Orchard.. haha.. very fun talaga sya kasama, and her friend too.. hehe.. si Joy nag-add sakin sa friendster tapos after some time na hindi nag-papansinan sa church noong simbang gabi, nag-chat na kami sa msn tapos sabay kami pumunta sa church sa boon lay... hahaha.. fun sya kasama as in!!! talk non-stop.. kahit ano paguusapan.. hehe.. masaya nga eh :-) smile na ako.. haha..

Kahapon sumamama ako sa kanila, lakad lakad sa orchard road tapos namili sila ng mga personal items a.k.a. burloloys hehehe.. tapos kumain kami sa lucky plaza doon sa "world famous" Kabayan.. hahaha.. then lakad lakad ulit, bumili si Joy ng bag nya.. tapos nameet namin si Joanne sa Borders na coffe bean... haha..

Dami ko nakilala yesterday ha.. 2 people.. thanks Joy!!! hmmm.. boses bakla daw ako.. haha.. sorry ganun talaga.. pero straight ako, anu ba kayo! haha.. boses lang.. haha.. si Joy siga ang dating pero mabait na tao sya.. hehe.. punk ang porma.. hmm.. a bit to the hip-hop side.. oh diba.. hehehe.. sige from here na lang muna...

2005-12-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

PASKO!!!!!!!! ang saya (at lungkot) ng pasko ko this year.. hehe..

Kasi ang saya.. nakita ko ulit ang mga pinsan ko.. sa bago bantay at sa tiaong.. nakakamiss sila.. nakakamiss ang Pilipinas... sabi ko nga eh, doon ako titira pagkatapos ko ng college dito sa Singapore.. hehe.. kahit mahirap ang buhay, masaya naman! hehe.. at buhay ang pasko, buhay ang mga tao.. dito kasi sa Singapore PATAY ang mga tao.. tahimik, duwag, takot mag-ingay, takot magpakasaya... hahaha.. nakakaawa talaga.. pero doon, kahit di mo kakilala ngingitian mo lang, ngingiti din.. hahaha.. ang saya talaga!

Happy birthday Jesus :-)

sa tiaong ang daming nagyari talaga... nag-debut si Izette... hehehe.. ako yung escort!!! omg... its an honor talaga kc di ko ineexpect yun.. hehehe.. kaya fun talaga.. hehe.. Happy 18th birthday pinsan!!! hehehe.. miss ko na ang Garcia family talaga..

pero syempre meron ako na-meet na special person.. hehe.. i miss her na nga eh!!!

haha.. kasi ka-txt ko sya ng nonstop eh.. nagpa-auto roaming pa ako pasa sa kanya.. oh diba.. ganun ka special... hehe.. masaya kasi sya kasakasama.. hehe.. sayang at umalis kaagad ako ng Pilipinas.. hahaha.. pero tanggap ko na yun noh!.. palagi namang ganito eh, mahirap talaga ang buhay sa abroad.. hehe.. pero binibiyayaan naman kami ni Lord ng sobra-sobra.. hehehe..

di bale, magkikita-kita pa naman next year na pasko! hehe.. time flies naman :-) miss yah!

2005-12-20T09:00:00.000+08:00

Ang pasko ay sumaaaaaa-pit
Tayo ay mamagsi-aaaaaaaawit...

hahaha!

Its Christmas time now.. yeah.. in 5 days time :-) And its always a great time.. aheheje..

Im gonna miss Simbang Gabi here in Singapore...

Im supposed to be meeting Glam again in 22 but im not here already.. haha.. maybe next time k? :-) I met alot of new people this December... starting from the Christmas party to the Simbang Gabi... hahaha.. i hope to see alot of new people next year too!

I have been going to the Simbang Gabi with my friends Maruh, Tami and John... haha.. add in the "lynne" family, Ian and Emerson, Faith & her friends ("broken angel" and some other gals) hehe.. and ofcourse not to forget Tita Jenny and family, and ofcourse my dad.. hahaha..

Have a nice Christmas singapore!!! im gonna miss u all!!!.. awwww.. haha.. 1 week only leh.. almost a wasted airline ticket..

2005-12-18T13:40:00.000+08:00

yan na nga ba sinasabi ko eh... haaay bakit ba kasi kailangan pang magaway? Pwede naman makipag bati kc wala naman talagang point ang away.. misunderstanding lang naman.. at chaka isang text message can bring it all to a stop diba.. pero ayaw naman.. what the hell am i supposed to do? di ko alam kung pano ako makakatulong sa kanila... baka lang ako madamay.. baka lang sabihin pakialamaro ako.. i just want to help..

kaya please please.. magbati na kayo :-/

pati ako nalulungkot pag ganto ang nangyayari sa mga kaibigan ko.. Lord help mo naman kami oh.. haizz..

=(
even if christmas is cold this year...
sana matupad intentions ko...
para sa inyo to'

2005-12-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

Crush ko sya... at sinabi ko kay Maruh kung sino yun.. hmmm.. la lang.. its okay to have crushes am i right... haizz.. nakakabaliw and "this thing called love" haha!

Anyways, bago ako tuluyang malunod sa day dreams ko.. i wanna say MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! to everyone... Its the last week of "half" the semester last week... after the new year is the common test weeks.. guess what im gonna have to rush in my studies because in going to reach singapore at 27 so that means i will have 4 or 5 days to study.. lolzz..

Simbang gami na!!! hahaha... kasama ko magsimba sila Maruh, Tami, Sheryl at John these past 2 days... Today we are supposed to go out just to walk around and check out the sale in Mango... hmmm.. haha.. pero kagabi wala si Tami eh.. hmmm.. today naman i have a bad feeling na di makakapunta si Maruh.. she never reply to my text eh.. actually she havent replied to everyone's text, text from Tami, text from John... hmmmm... what else... wala na yun lang naman...

haaay naku.. malungkot yata ang christmas ko ngayon... wala kasi ako gf eh! hahaha! dun take me seriously, ganito lang talaga ako kapag medyo nalalabsick! lolzz..

2005-12-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Playing the Game

Today was softball day... we have a match against JJC.. and as always we lost again.. the score is 15-5 if im not wrong... actually, losing is nothing as long as we enjoyed the game.. but my team mates forgot what the game is all about...

Sports is a "show" of athleticism.. yeah i can agree on that.. but softball is a TEAM GAME... the first word: TEAM.. it means for us to score good, we have to work well with EACH other.. pull each other up when we fall down.. thats what the word TEAM really means.. sticking together no matter how good or how lousy your fellow team members are.. the second word: GAME.. it means its just a game.. we play games.. why do we play? Because we want to have fun... how would it be fun if you shout at people when they make mistakes? how would it be fun of the whole idea changes... if we start playing to WIN and not to HAVE FUN?

Softball team has still a long way to go before it starts having fun on the field...

i dont want to say it here, but i really have to!
so here it goes :-)
today, Charlotte went all the way down just to support the team.. actually she say she wants to support me when i play... maaaan, she has got to be the sweetest woman on earth! and thats why she's the only one who really caught my heart... remember my post last Nov 28? "... i didnt say na wala.. lolzz.. meron nga eh.. isa lang sya.. haha! :-)" hahaha.. she's really a great friend.. im lucky i met her.. (awwww.. so sweet!!! hehe!)

2005-12-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

I havent been updating much because of my "busy" schedule.. sia lah.. like businessman liddat.. but actually its tru lah.. i cannot do much homework here at home since i got alot of distractions.. so i stay in school later nowadays.. BUT there has been too much "out of school" activities that i do recently.. like the christmas party, softball, playing computer games.. stuffs like that.. haizz..

Im super behind time already.. and im sitting here in front of my desktop uploading pictures, doing blog, staring at the screen and keyboard... sometimes i just want time to stop for a while so i can finish up my work! haizz.. like sucks.. im seriously behind time in ALL my subjects in terms of things to hand in and revisions... by the way, im going back to philippines and staying there for a week! Which means, by the time i get back here in singapore, i lost all the time i need for revision...

God bless everyone... christmas is coming! haha..

2005-12-11T11:55:00.000+08:00

PARTY!@!!

haha.. i believe the party last night rocks too much.. lolzz! I woke up and i cant move my body.. haha.. but im alright now.. i think i drank to much alcohol last night.. im sure everyone else that came, all the 50++ people enjoyed themselves here at home.. haha.. im gonna upload the pictures a little later.. im still helping in cleaning the house...

it turned out fun.. sorry to Tita.. haha..!

Party rocks!!!

2005-12-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

i am soooo f*cked up now...

Please please STOP changing the programme... i dont like it whan people want to change the program and they dont tell me about it directly... as in, HELLO! its gonna be ON my house and youre not gonna tell me face to face? What the hell is that?.. im so pissed off... I wanna change the venue.......

Anyways its still on, attire is "formal" (i think it sux.. so no need to wear formal) the place is my house.. if you are a filipino then you are invited.. no "non-filipino" allowed (im sorry to say that, not my orders actually)

I dont feel so fuckin' good right now.. haizz..

First, the programme for the pary includes "draw" contests.. for example: Its tme for the singing contest, someone will draw out the names of the people who are going to sing! WHAT THE F*** IS THAT??? You call that fun??? that is so not fun... thats bull shit!@!! It goes the same for dancing contest (wtf???)... and another thing that pissed me off is that one Tita wants to move the computer somewhere else, not only the computer but some other stuff to make some space for the people... WHAT THE HELL??!!!!!! THIS IS NOT YOUR HOUSE TITA... you dont order me around, you dont say where household stuff is gonna be placed... not you, not anyone... you got that???

This party will be so awesome, i cant wait!

..l.. -____- ..l..

2005-12-06T17:45:00.000+08:00

Im feeling bored here... but actually deep inside i got lots of schoolwork problems! wahahaha.. first of all i started this semester just like last term: SLACK!!! haha.. i relax too much, i realized too late that i am SUPER behind time in handing up my works.. haizz.. but hopefully i can catch up lah.. HOPEFULLY.. haha.. if i start doing them now.. lolzz..

Need For Speed is becoming more boring... haha...

2005-12-04T15:55:00.000+08:00

I skipped my afternoon class last friday... haizz.. i SWEAR im never gonna do that EVER again!

Actually i didnt slack off, i met up with Tami and Maruh because we are gonna buy the party decorations that afternoon... First we went to IMM but we found expensive stuff so we decided to go to Bugis, the shop where we bought the decors last year.. the same show where Jena got pick-pocketted... anyways, we took lots and lots of stuff thinking they are cheap but in the end it reached $71...! omg!!! It sucks because our budget was supposed to be up to $50 only.. anyways, we called Tita Maris up and she agreed to giving us 50 more.. haha! Thats good...

We ate at Long John and talked about some "serious stuffs"... i will talk about this later!

Then we watched Harry Potter... and we all agreed that there's alot of parts in the book that wasnt included... anyways, i think that movie was okay.. i like the gal, Harry's crush, the one with the Chinese-looks-but-scottish-accent.. haha! So after watching we went home, slept in the mrt actually.. hehe.. Maruh didnt want me to bring the decorations at my home, its gonna be held here right, why does she want to bring the things to her home??? haha.. its alright actually.. im not gonna decorate the house alone.. lolzz!

About that "serious stuffs"... actually its about sex.. its not about "what" it is, rather its "who" are the filipino youth that are doing it... yeah.. sad to hear right.. but its true.. some people as young as 14 arent vigins anymore.. haizz.. Anyways, i think im gonna lock the 3 bedrooms during the party on saturday because i dont want them to go and fuck around my house.. yuck! Please people, please go straight to hell...

Come to think of it, only those who go to church are the decent ones... :-)

2005-12-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

Do you know, its World AIDS Day today!

I was watching the anti-AIDS campaign shows in MTV today, the show they made titled "Transit" its premiered today... and its really powerful... I just found out that 6000 people get infected with HIV every day! Thats freakin' too much... my goodness... plus, me and the guys in class were just reading this poll that 50% of guy teens would say yes to premarital sex, while 60% of gal teens say yes... Isnt that the same as saying that 1 out of 2 person would agree to premarital sex? Thats scary... really really disturbing. I hope you people out there open your eyes and think twice everytime temptation comes. Who knows what will happen :-/

I think im gonna open a website dedicated to prevention of HIV... haha.. just wanna do my part for the "new-age" society and morality & my beliefs.. lolzz.. im super conservative and im proud of it.. haha!

2005-12-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

Waaaaah... Maruh wont stop texting me... haizz.. im not saying that its a bad thing.. what im trying to say is that i dont want people to get disappointed with me and think bad about me whenever i dont reply or dont return calls... sorry... tsktsk... i just think its pretty wierd... because she never text me for quite a long time, and all of a sudden, this week only, she keeps on texting me... sorry ha.. i just gotta voice it out here :-(

Please please i hope she wont read this post... haizz... i dun feel like replying to her texts eh.. ewan ko ba.. basta sorry na lang.. maybe a few text okie lang :-/ pero pag ang dami, as in everyday at mayat-maya, ay di na ako comfortable nun... kaya yun.. hirap i-explain eh..

Anyways, today was fine i guess.. its the IS day and i gets to meet up with different people other than my classmates.. fun and quite okay..

Tomorrow i will be going out with Tami and Maruh and we will all be buying the decorations for the christmas party... hmmm.. and probably catch a movie or something.. harry potter is the most probable... haha! Im gonna be watching it for the 2nd time now..

2005-11-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. i wonder how the "only child" sleeps at night.. nobody to talk to, no late night chit-chat.. haha.. poor people.. lolzz.. joke.. because im alone here at home and i think its cool to some extent.. but its too quiet lah.. nobody to talk to.. haha..

Well luckily its fun.. Christmas party is just around the corner.. its next week already! Alamak! My excitement level is very high.. haha.. sobrang excited na talaga.. fun kaya yun.. and the best part is that its gonna be here at my home.. lolzz..

2005-11-30T17:30:00.000+08:00

This blog sucks... I cant say what i want to say.. like when someone pisses me off in school.. or when i found out some "chismis" haha.. because i am VERY careful with my words here nowadays.. i cant afford another deletion of my blog.. tsktsk.. this is my 3rd blog okie.. i want to keep this for a long time.. haha.. for the pictures..

Anyways, today was fun.. in school and off.. haha.. we keep disturbing Kelvin with the "Zombie" song by Cranberries and it turns out he likes it.. now he keeps singing it.. and it irritates the shit out of us all.. haha! Then its time for some lessons and yes, Han Wei kenna get scolded (not scolded as in shout) for being super vulgar.. Han Wei's fave word is CB while Kelvin's fave word is Kao Peh.. haha.. the rest of the class is quite behaved and okay.. Especially the gals.. hjaha.. since they all are from China so they are still pretty quiet.. lolzz.. but they are super freindly lah.. Known them for six++ months now.. haha..

Gotta blog laters... I gotta go somewhere.. haiiizz im super tired...

2005-11-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

Today is supposed to be the sports day but nobody was prepared for it.. lolzz.. in the end of the day, most of us went, but slowly escaped.. haha.. Han Wei, the class sports captain left the fist! wth?!?! haha.. and he sms me, "i now appoint you the captain..." haha.. stupid.. im already the vice-captain and go ang put pressure in me summore.. lolzz.. so i left also.. hahaha! We are super lazy.. all guys are.. haha.. at least i admit it..

Hmmm.. home is so quiet.. im not used to it.. nobody playing in the comp.. nobody watching tv.. im so alone.. waaaah.. hahaha! Ang arte ko noh.. Anyways, naka-chat ko nga pala si batilog a.k.a. JJ kanina pero di raw sya sure kung makakapunta sya... I heard from Tami na not much people will be able to come.. i think the December 10 is too early.. everybody thinks it is.. haizz.. thats gonna be sad! We will be preparing & decorating my house and in the end only the oldies will come... and liddat cannot lah.. haha.. there's got to be more youth.. lolzz.. so i hope many people can come..

Maruh is getting really excited para sa friday.. hang-out kc kami that day.. hmmm.. so ayun..

News Update: im the BlackList #8 now.. haha.. i just beat Jade because her specialty is Drag Racing.. haha.. and that happens to be the easiest kind of race in the game.. lolzz! Need For Speed Most Wanted is what i have been wanting the most.. lame.. haha!

2005-11-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

gusto ko lang liwanagin, "bihira" ang people na ganun.. i didnt say na wala.. lolzz.. meron nga eh.. isa lang sya.. haha! :-) haay, ano ba to!

2005-11-28T18:15:00.000+08:00

I miss my brothers... its not fun when im alone here.. i got nobody to talk to at home.. haizz.. sad.. i think the christmas party wont be so great.. i wish they are here, so i got some back-up.. haha! They are my best friends even if we all fight alot.. lolzz..

No worries, si Maruh daw muna ang kapatid ko this time.. lolzz.. we are texting each other yesterday.. haha.. thanks talaga :-) Buti pa si Maruh nag-rereply sa text ko.. si Tami hindi.. wahahaha! Joke lang!

Good news, im not so love sick anymore.. haha.. im "single, not available" at the moment.. lolzz.. wala naman kc nakakabighani ng puso ko eh.. bihira ang people na ganun..

2005-11-28T11:21:00.000+08:00

practice at home last saturday...

2005-11-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

What a crazy week!

Firstly, i wanna say something about last friday because i went to class 1 hour late so i was thinking the teacher will mark me present on the next hour of the lecture but he didnt! waaaah... that sucks! But its alright lah, next time i wont be so stupid to be late because of eating breakfast very slowly... haha.. friday was a nice day, actually i forgot what happened that day.... hmmmm... never mind -.-

Then yesterday was kinda fun also... the practice for the tagalog mass was held here at home.. haha.. we cleaned the house non-stop from morning onwards, only switching turns on the lap-top to play Need For Speed... Anyways, we were hoping alot of people would turn up but not much people came... the usuals came! haha.. Tita Maris ofcourse, Tito Butch and Tita Jenny (our family friends) are also present.. then therer is Tito Ike (the guitar legend) haha! and tita marlene ofcourse with her espesyal na giniling.. and most important, Maruh and Tami.. haha!

We did some singing, but mostly we did nothing much but to eat the hell lot of food on the table.. lolzz.. and GREAT NEWS!!! The christmas party will be moved from 17 to 10 of December and it will be held here at home! wahahaha!!! I was hoping na papayag si mama na mag-oovernite ang some of the people.. lolzz.. So ganun na nga, masaya ang evening.. full of green jokes at chismis at KUHANAN NG PICTURES!!! haha! Anyways, time passed by very fast and the oldies went home first, then after some time I sent Maruh and Tami home to the mrt... hmmm... pero di pa tapos yan...

We did a call conference pere what happened was Tami was supposed to text me and Maruh when to call her... pero in the end, we started our conference around 1am na! OH MAY GAAAAAAAAAAD!!! hahaha.. and we talked alot about planning the decorations, the games, budget, mga champagne glasses, projector, at iba pa... haha! Pero umikot-ikot ang usapan hanggang umabot sa mga chismis, kila Aaron and Kenneth, kila Kay, at most important of all: sa mga love life namin.. haha.. kasi naman puro long distance relationships eh... anyways, di lang yan ang pinagusapan, meron din horror.. haha.. somebody wants to know how its like to be a guy kc.. haha! Lets not elaborate.. lolzz.. joke! Anyways, natapos na kami magusap-usap around 3am na!! grabe... sakit sa ulo.. haha.. pero fun talaga :-) bonding diba.. haha!

Back to english! haha.. this morning Jr and Mark went to Pinas na... they will be there for a whole month! grabe inggit ako..! oops was that tagalog? haha.. i mean, im super jealous..! lolzz.. They were accompanied by dad who will come back here on Wednesday... then after around 2 weeks, mom will go there in Philippines, then on December 21 me and my dad will go.. haha.. we will be spending Christmas there which is really gonna be great!!!

I cant wait for the party!!! hope its gonna be great...

2005-11-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

Im feeling happy today.. haha!

First of all, today was the electroniccs and engmech day.. but it turned out, i just lacked practice.. haha.. i FINALLY understood what im doing.. lolzz! So i can start helping Zaidi and they all now.. haha.. because all these time i was helping them but i also dunno what im doing in the excercises... at least now its gonna be easier for me to explain engmech and electronics to them! cheers! haha..

I reached home, played need for speed non-stop.. haha.. its super fun.. and addictive.. and makes me curse alot everytime i lose a race.. lolzz..

other than that, i gotta say its a fun day today.. nothing much.. just fun :-)

2005-11-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

IM SUPER STRESSED!!!

Damn i hate this feeling talaga... in school there is this module im taking called analog electronics which i TOTALLY dont understand! F talaga... haizz.. and what im upset about is there is ANOTHER module, the engineering mecahnics which deals with forces and the lecturer really isnt doing alot of explaining... i feel like vomitting especially when i keep thinking about what might happen during the exams period since i will be going to Philippines during the 2 weeks of holiday this december... i think im not gonna be prepared for the tests... then im gonna score badly... then im gonna see my results, feel worthless and stupid... then im gonna be failing my subjects............ i need motivation please!

I wanna say thank you!!! to EDDIE for the Need For Speed Most Wanted... the game which i can say is THE BEST racing game ever...!!! There is the Ford Mustang GT.. got the Gallardo & Murcielago (correct spelling meh?) of both Lamborghini cars... and super most special of all the vehicles: MITSUBISHI LANCER Evolution VIII wahahahaha!!! I love that car SOBRA... i love that game... haha! Thanks talaga...

Playing it has been a great stress relief... and its got great soundtrack too.. haha!

Tomorrow is another day... i dont know how much more i can last in school... Hey, dont think that being among the top last semester is important.. this semester is another set of new stuff all of us in school have to learn... meaning: anyone can be in the top 10%... therefore, i need to buckle up more and do ALOT of self study to catch up in my school work... Singapore SUX!!! College people here have no life at all... its all about Books and Studying... SUCKS! big time...

Nothing

2005-11-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

Nothing good ever comes from bragging! Pero eto na, i got this small certificate saying i made it to the top 10% of ME... hehe.. i was super happy... i didnt expect it to happen talaga! Kelvin and Han Tun was also there since Kelvin made it to the to 10% too and Han Tun was the highest in ELTech... such a blessing omg! thanks talaga!

Yesterday in church was fun... me and Tami and Maruh were all talking about and getting excited over the coming Christmas Party... lolzz.. the best part is that it might be on my place!!! wahahaha! So i was thinking we can break the rules and can allow us to have a sleep over na rin.. wahaha! Fun kaya nun.. Anyways, ako lang naman yun nagiisip non.. haha! Girls dun sleep over in guys house understand!

Meron nanaman school tomorrow pero at least even weeks na kaya some of the subjects ay wala this week! wahaha! maaga ako makakauwi almost everyday! yay!

Im getting more and more addicted to Age Of Empires 3 na talaga... cant stop playing.. haha... nasa lap-top ko pa meaning im bringing it to school... that leads to not concentrating in school work.. haizz.. just like last term... i hope can catch up with all the schoolwork... kasi medyo nahuhuli na ako sa mga iba.. tsktsk... Engineering Mechanics SUX!!! I dont understand the forces and the equilibrium... grabe...

Jr and Mark will be leaving for Philippines this coming Sunday, please pray for their safe journey! haha.. 1 month sila doon! holy shet! nakakainggit!

2005-11-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS PARTY 2005!!!

KELAN? 17 December 2005
SAAN? to be confirmed (in Yew Tee or my house!)
ORAS? 7pm up to sawa! haha!
SINO? meron star guests like me, Tami, Maruh..

Basically this is what we talked about in today's meeting dito sa bahay namin. Nag plan ng Christmas Party which is open to all pinoy people and to others as well (kung marunong ka mag-tagalog) haha! The youth will be in charge of the games and basically everything that will happen in the party... Meron games, dancing (syempre!), singing contest, kainan (di mawawala yan), mga awarding like best costume and king & queen of the night etc,... Basta its gonna be fun... i hope lots and lots of Pinoys will turn up!

2005-11-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

Okay, a big mood change all of a sudden... but hey, i cant say it here.. haha! Lets just say God answered something i was asking for and im really happy about it.. hmmm.. what else... nothing much i guess.. Looks like we will all be cleaning the house tomorrow.. tsktsk..

2005-11-18T17:15:00.000+08:00

Okay this is my summary, last night i had a chat with Glam online.. then i didnt sleep yet coz i played NFSU2 until 1am.. lolzz.. woke up early at 5am and was feeling light headed in school... lolzz! Thats not all!

Im super inlove na with this song talaga: "When I Look Into Your Eyes" by Firehouse... basta maganda talaga ang song na yan!! Damn!!! wahahah! Me and Zaidi were singing it like some drunk guys while walking down the stairs.. lolzz.. because some part was super high, that we really scream! omg! ang saya talaga...

Well, the gud part is the song and everything today. Im supposed to be going for the Outward Bound today but i didnt because im too lazy! wahaha.. at least im honest.. oh man.. i told Min Hui that i will be coming... tsktsk..

Jr arrived safely, thank God :-) and didnt bring me my habilin which is a bandana.. lolzz.. wala na daw bentang bandana sa Hong Kong at this time.. puro winter clothing na lang raw.. hmmmm.. sige kanta na lang ulit ako! haha! rock on!

I see forever when i look in your eyes
You're all I've ever wanted
I always want you to be mine.................... wahahaha!

2005-11-17T21:30:00.000+08:00

Whats happening to me!!!

am i in-love na ba?

haaaaay..

ano ba to!

:-?

cut the crap! hehe.. anyways, im still okay.. finally i got the Limp Bizkit "greatest hits" cd that i want... haha! except, it didnt have the song Hotdog in there.. haizz.. im pretty sad because i thought it was a really great hit! Plus i also wanted to hear all the 40+ F-words in that song.. lolzz.. but the cd is great, its got the My Way and Behind Blue Eyes AND MOST important OF ALL: HOME SWEET HOME!!! wahahaha! I LOVE that song! omg...

hsdhshld

2005-11-17T12:30:00.000+08:00

Wow yesterday was fun talaga... favourite word for the day is "saan?" at "ano na?" wahahaha! I met up with Glam, Grace, and Gerrard (tama ba? hehe) sa Somerset tapos naglakad-lakad kami.. wala lang.. basta lakad lang sa orchard road... kaya nga palaging "saan?" ang tanong kasi di alam kung saan ba talaga pupunta...

Pero it was fun talaga... i was waiting at somerset and i dunno how she looks like so i was like staring at people and waiting if they would wave at me.. wahahaha! pero it was okie naman... we all walked from 4 until 7 only stopping to eat halo-halo in Lucky Plaza...

All the time i was super quiet talaga!!! Haizz!!! kakainis... grabe nga eh... not that im not like this, but im disappointed with myself kasi nga mga pinoy na kasama ko pero di pa rin ako makadaldal... haha.. fun nga sila kasama eh... great people with lame humour as in!!! hahaha... pero fun talaga.. enjoy ako ha...

Basta pag lumabas ulit kami, magiingay na ako! hahaha! oo nga pala, thanks Glam...

Looking foreward to our next gimik!

2005-11-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

There are alot to talk about now.. hehe..

Saturday:
Welcome mama mary at our home!!! hehe.. she will be staying here for 1 month! we cleaned the house for the whole day.. and it was worth it.. yeah.. the house is lickable again! hahaha!

Sunday:
Jr went off to Hong Kong in his camping trip.. hehe.. so me and my family went to the airport to send him off.. haha! sweet right? :-) at first i thought it was crazy to send him off since he will be away fro 1 week only.. but it turns out, parents, brothers, and sisters of all ages were there to send off their son/daughter/sibling.. wahahaha! it was crazy...

In the afternoon was the church as always :-) I still cant go for the eucharist because i havent been into confession... haizz.. sorry... but at least tonight was fun.. hehe.. Tami, ur really one crazy gal! And good luck to Jena for ur O-levels!

Monday:
Somebody added me in friendster and msn... si GLAM!!! a sweet sweet gal sya grabe! basta pa na-meet nyo sya, makikita nyo... haha! We will be meeting up tomorrow nga eh.. parang double date pa! wow! haha... wish me luck! lolzz.. ah basta! excited na kasi eh...

Memories

2005-11-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

I was watching a boring mtv show when all of a sudden the "graduation song" was played... damn it really brought back memories... lots & lots of good memories. And i felt a sudden impulse of sadness... aiyah.. i really miss 4m2 honestly! even if i dont show it in my face... *sighs*

Today in school, a wonderful thing happened... after the first half of the MTPRAC in the morning, me and the guys went down to buy a drink... guess who was there!!! wahahaha! DIANA!!! O.M.G!!! lolzz... im SUPER happy.. hey im those kind of people that are easy to make happy... hahaha.. anyways, Zaidi also say she looks nice... haha.. 2nd opinion! :-)

The rest of the day was quite boring already... alot of dirty jokes & pornography & looking at girls... VERY COMMON in my class nowadays... haizz.. Wan also said the class is terrible now... people have nothing much to do but think about girls and stuff like that... i admit i am SOMEHOW influenced but a bit only lah.. haha! Im praying people like Han Wei and Jackson will change.. haha!

Jr is going for his trip to Hong Kong this Sunday so me + family will be going to church tomorrow since he wont make it to church in Sunday... hmmm.. God bless in your flight!

Watching Pinoy Big Brother... its a nice show talaga...

Diana

2005-11-10T16:20:00.000+08:00

Today was quite surprising... Charlotte is my IS classmate this term. But a bit wierd because we treated each other like strangers.. hmmm.. anyways, thats all about the IS.. its pretty boring and quiet in class... but there was one time the teacher talked about the "M-word" which i hate most. It goes lie this, "one topic for example is about the filipino maid killing her employee..." BULLSHIT... i dont ever want to hear the Filipino name with the M-word in one sentence...

Then i was walking at the corridor when Diana showed up... lolzz.. so fun.. exchanged a question & answer, "you going for CATS lesson?" and i answered, "nope.. im going for lunch" hahaha! Hope to see her on monday ;-)

Met up with Han Wei, Jackson, and Wan and other people in Canteen 1... then after we ate + chit-chat for 30 minutes, we all left.. lolzz.. im supposed to be going for a self-training in softball today but it will start in 4pm so in the end i went home... im making this small project at home, so i bought a huge sketch pad in popular on my way home... Its gonna be fun! :-)

Dictionary

2005-11-10T06:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was fun... I gets to bump onto Vanessa and Joan in Canteen 1.. haha! What a surprise! lolzz.. And they were inviting me to sit with them at their table but cannot lah.. got alot of people there orredy, and i dun know them.. hehe.. anyways, i was sitting with Han Wei and they all when all of a sudden SHARON showed up!!! I almost choked and i immediately walked away... omg!!! I Dun ever want to see her leh... She was the same girl who was offering me that AIA insurance... This time she kenna victimise Jackson.. lolzz.. in the end i went back and she recognize me... then its okays i guess.. and Jackson also didnt take the insurance...

Today is the IS day... Hope its gonna be fun... gotta meet new people again :-) haha!

There is softball practice today, but only a self-training.. Farhan is inviting me to go with him and Mitch but i dont think i can go because they will practice in the afternoon.. my lessons end at 12pm so i dont know if i can wait long enough.. haha! maybe tomorrow okie? :-)

owel

2005-11-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

A long today... alot of stuff was covered about semiconductors, about parabolas & linear graph plotting, about sketching & autocad... Tiring day is always tuesdays... just like last term...

I kinda miss the yesterday's lesson, because during the practicals, i gets to meet "Diana", a malay gal with round eyes, curly hair, super pleasant and friendly personality... *sighs* hope to see her soon!

Its been fun spending time with my classmates in A9, lots of stuff & dirty jokes going around, making the mood a bit more lively... lolzz.. Hope they can all focus on the subjects and NOT be too much childish that they laugh at the shape of parabolas (looking like breasts) and drawing 2 circles with a pair of parallel lines between in AutoCAD (a male reproductive organ)............. Please lah people, GROW UP!!! haha! but a good laugh is always OK!

Pinoy Ako, Pinoy

2005-11-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

Omg im turning love sick lately... lolzz.. thats really sad.. because even if you really really wanted to be with someone, you cant do anything much right.. sigh..

Updates:

Saturday evening was the Tagalog Mass once more but we keep on practicing that during the actual mass, we lost our voices.. tsktsk.. but its okay lah.. at least we can still push ourselves & there is STILL that low volume coming out of our mouth.

Sunday i went out with Vanessa and her sec4 classmates and we all went to watch the soccer finals between Home & Woodlands... it was fun, i gets to meet new people and they were really great! Fun & crazy people! :-)

Monday was a long day in school. And there is this practical today and met more people... hmmm... i dont feel like talking about life now... haizz.. no mood..

2005-11-05T14:45:00.000+08:00

you noe what.. im Top 5 in the whole of Mechanical Engineering batch last semester.. haha! im so happy... and my parents are also happy... haha.. but most of all, i think i owe it all to God.. yeah.. i cant imagine being top in class & among the top in ME... wahahaha.. if i can keep up, i think i can land a scholarship or something...

But right now, im just happy.. hehe.. Thank you Lord..

There is supposed to be softball bbq today and i think i can still catch up after the Tagalog Mass.. hmmm.. Mitch has been very helpful, gave me the address & which bus to take.. thanks man..

Last night, i was chatting with Vanessa and her friends.. haha.. fun people.. and Van wants me to come along with them in a soccer match tomorrow... hmmm.. but all of us are yet to confirm anything.. haha... I can wait :-)

2005-11-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

"The game will never be over...

...because we're keeping the dream alive"

Life has been great. Lots of things happen at home, in school, when im out... Firstly, Tito Nick, Tita Iza and Nanay are here at home and they add colour to our lives, as much as Kira and Gazelle did! hehe... And then there is this addiction i have for softball/baseball... im actually trying to train my brothers in the game and Mark already has quick reflexes and accurate throwing which is even better than some in the softball club... haha! Jr is catching up fast, some more practice bro, and you will be super great! hehe..

In school, there is nothing much... class is a bit more quiet and smaller than last time... Today was alright, but i wish life has more spices in it! hehe.. Im sure i can come up with something that will make other people's lives more fun...

I realized i have been super curious about the issue of "life and death" that i forgot the most basic teachings in the Bible, that people's death is just a small part because there is eternal life on the other side.. hehe! I think im not very scared of death anymore.. lolzz..

Softball team is the best!!! Keep it up team!!! Even if we lost, we did not give up the fight.. and thats the most important part of playing in a competition...

Fastball

2005-11-02T17:05:00.000+08:00

Its the team's first game! hahaha.. and we were up against SRC Hunters... They are Singapore's best.. lolzz.. so what can you expect from a 1 month old team? Not much.. hehe.. but we put up a great fight... haha! and we didnt score! wahahaha! But its alright lah... We learned alot from the pros :-)

At least we are a team out there... And i finally got my jersey "Immanuel 33" and a personalized cap too.. wow so nice.. haha!

The day went slowly.. except when we were watching tose girls play catching & throwing.. hehe! They are so cute.. and one of them (my crush) kees looking at me and smiling and laughing when she makes mistakes.. hehehe.. SOOOOO CUTEEEEEE!!!!!!! waaaahahahaha! Thats why im going back to Kallang tomorrow to watch the games, and maybe see her again.. hehe!

I shall update again soon... In the meantime, i just wanna say SOFTBALL ROCKS!!! Our coach said that we still lack strength and speed and accuracy when we play.. lolzz.. its time to excercise!

Pictures!!!

2005-10-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

Some of the pictures i just posted are the ones i like most! haha! Please dont be offended lah... Im just saying what i really think... isnt the blog all about this?

Good news, Tito Nick & Family arrived here safely!!! (they are all in the dining area now.. hehe)

Tami, belated happy birthday ulit...

Happy Holloween everybody... dont 4get to PRAY for ur dear ones who passed on :-)

2005-10-31T19:18:00.000+08:00

4M2"04 once more!

2005-10-31T19:17:00.000+08:00

I think she's SUPER hot!

2005-10-31T19:16:00.000+08:00

Jean, Wendy, YeeZhao

Stars

2005-10-31T18:55:00.000+08:00

First day of school was fine for me. Seeing the same old people once more, just like what it used to be some 2 months ago. Even if Wan and Zaidi wasnt around, it still feels as if the class was whole, only a bit more quiet.

Tomorrow is the competition. I admit i feel nervous because I don't know if i will do good for the team. I dont even know if i WILL be able to play in the team's line-up... I asked "Benito Meal" (haha! laugh lah..) when i can get my slacks and jersey. He said i will get it tomorrow... tsktsk... If i dont get it tomorrow, i will quit the softball club! And Benito will start getting death threats in his mailbox... hahaha! joke! happy April Fools!!!

By this very moment, Tito Nick & his family would have reached Singapore already! haha! And they will be staying with us for 11 days i believe... Jr and Mark will be leaving by the end of this month, mom will follow in early December and then finally me & dad will be leaving at the Christmas week! We are all heading for Philippines ofcourse... There is no better place to go than HOME SWEET HOME!!! haha!

4m2 BBQ

2005-10-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today is the 4M2 class bbq gathering!!! yeah.. same place as the bbq farewell party for me last March... Brings back memories & i am THANKFUL im still here in Singapore!!! wahahaha! I really love 4m2... they are the best~

The bbq started at around 6pm and ended at 10 pm... At first i didnt want to stay first because i dont want to fell left out... But at around 7pm i went back and it turned out the opposite.. hehe.. 4M2 is a Chinese-speaking class... But they never let me feel left out! hehe.. I love you all... I gets to see several of my classmates again! Yeah.. and Jean ofcourse.. haha.. i like her u noe! wahahaha! Come to think of it, i like ALOT of people... haha! I get crushes very easily...

In the end, i think its been fun hanging out with them once more. I definitely would go out again with 4m2... haha!

I found out that school will start on Monday!!! OMG!!! so soon! and i didnt even know... lolzz... Im gonna be a full-time student once again!

Friday Night Live

2005-10-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

I dont think i will be playing for the team this coming tuesday... simply because i havent got my slacks (my white pants) and my jersey yet! I asked ben and he keeps saying "ah haven' com yet" tsktsk... Lets see if i will be able to play!

How is my new blog skin? hehe! Nice right? especially all the parts of the blog! hahaha!

Tomorrow is a 4m2 class gathering downstairs of Joy's house.. brings back memories of last March, during my "supposedly" farewell.. hehe! I gotta sleep already! I just finished watching Doom, Transporter 2, and Flight Plan... headache!!!

Reflections

2005-10-28T08:30:00.000+08:00

I thought it over yesterday and i told Farid that i wont be able to commit to his band yet this time... Im a beginner in guitar playing, i just explored plucking and my fingers are still quite stiff.. I know i need a lot of time practicing and playing so its really gonna eat away some of my time left for studying. I dont want that. So the best thing to do is to cool off, maybe for 1 year or 2 before i decide to join/form a band... I can still improve on my playing, at my own pace though... without any pressure or time-push (u know what i mean)... Its for the best! Guitar playing is a good form of recreation, but i shouldnt let the "rockstar" thing go into my head... haha!

Yesterday is INAY's birthday!!! (its still her birthday today there in California) Mom called them there last night and we gets to greet her... Yeah, its a special day :-) Wish i was there to celebrate ur birthday po!

Actually today is also a special day! hahaha! Tami's birthday...

Inay (74) and Tami (19)
Two great players in this game called life! haha... Im glad they are in my life because of their love and concern and everything that they have shared to me... *sobs-sobs* But the most important of all is that they both have strong faith in God (and thats all that ever matters!) hehe! To my dearest grandma: I love you po!!! To my dearest friend/"almost-my-cousin": I love you din syempre!!! hahaha! Thank you for being here beside me (ang corny sobra!)... and thanks sa mga songs din! haha!

Nullified

2005-10-27T13:20:00.000+08:00

NULLIFIED...Thats the name of Farid's band... he and Syazani formed it some months ago... and they lack a permanent guitarist since "Syazwan" is not committed enough to the group... I said YES i can be in the band.. lolzz.. what the hell right.. i mean, i have nothing to lose.. we will go and play some songs together every friday night for one hour only.. mostly its like improve at your own pace, play at your own time...

They are heavy metal fans... Iron Maiden, Celesty, blah blah blah... those songs that are heavy on power chords, fast playing drums, and lots & lots of palm-muting... anyways, im still a NOOB!!! (i cant believe im a noobie in everything! haha!) And im trying to learn from them both because they are quite good at guitars already... they play fast, their fingers are fast...

Anyways, i think overall its good that im joining some band which isnt established yet... the bad part is that i dont think i can commit much to the band because of school works, softball, and other stuff... haha! Hopefully i can improve on playing the guitar AND have fun at the same time...

They are both great guys... haha! But i HATE it when Farid laughs about my taste of music... Because i listen to Kid Rock, to Good Charlotte, to other stuff... People have different interests... If i was like him, i will be "laughing until shit comes out of my mouth" on Heavy Metal music because FRANKLY it sucks... Vocals are terrible and its heavy & fast... hahaha! But who cares, they asked me to join them so i might as well live with their kind of music... lolzz.. i will fake it if i have to...

Life in 4 long days*

2005-10-27T07:45:00.000+08:00

Life has been a bit hectic these days. Lots of things happened. Now lets see them in a day-by-day recollection of events that took place... haha! Like real sia...

MONDAY
I skipped softball practice and met up with Sharon to see what she is mumbling about on the phone.. haha! She told me she is from AIA (an insurance company) and she WANTS me to apply insurance... tsktsk... as if im really gonna fall for her good looks and revealing clothing and really will give money to apply for an insurance! lolzz... Im not even working yet! Ofcourse i wont get insured.. she just wants to get some money out of me.. hahaha! Im surprised how prepared she is: she handed me some application forms with my name printed already there! wow.. thats fast.. she got it from the survey form i filled up.. haha! Anyways, i didnt want to meet up on Tuesday because she wants me to cock up $118 to give her as a "deposit" haha! I said my parents didnt agree and that was the end of it... I lived happily ever after! ahhaha!

TUESDAY
Im supposed to be meeting my ITMA staff like me (the e-lutions people) in Orchard, but i want TengYa to go also.. haha! So i said she should go too.. then she said she will go if i fetch her in Tampines.. tsktsk.. So i went there: a bit early, and she was a bit late! lolzz.. and Audrey was there too... Then we all went to Orchard and reached there in time... Tami sms me asked me to meet her in Yishun so we can go to orchard together.. haha.. sorry somebody asked me earlier orredy.. lolzz!

We all ate at Sakae Sushi and it was a bit cramped because the place was small and our legs are all tangled under the table.. hahaha! After 2 hours of eating, we went off to walk around Orchard some more, took some pictures outside Takashimaya... then went to Heeren and walked (window-shopped) some more.. then took some neo-print... very fun... blah blah..

I was kinda bored at first because i dont know much of the people so i end up being quiet as always.. haha! I told you i dont like big crowds!!! lolzz... I like small illegal gatherings only...

Then we all went home after the neo print, took 1 hour there i think.. haha! But it was fun! Hey, Tami smells good.. haha! Izzit her perfume or shampoo? haha I dunno leh, but yesterday i smell something nice in the mrt, similar to someone's ^.^ and i almost laughed.. haha! I thought its tami.. hahaha! Like that nice what...

WEDNESDAY
I decided to give softball a shot... and as always, i wondered why i feel nervous or uneasy going to NgeeAnn Poly... then i realized its because i feel very "left-out" when im with the team... haizz.. but i keep telling myself, its only going to be 2 days of competition so i think i can "tahan" the situation of being a non-chinese out there... But the good thing about the team is they encourage me when i swing a strike.. haha! Thanks guys... So i end up hitting every ball since then... I think i did some 4 strikes but i did around 8 hits, haha! I believe its not bad... Coz i havent had to bat for 2 weeks... The team is getting familiar with the Kallang Field but i think we lack practice to go PRO.. hahaha! Joke lah... Its a newly formed team, started only the beginning of October... lolzz.. and there are alot of improvements in the newbies (i.e. yours truly and Farhan)...

In the end i didnt go and ride the bus with them because im super bored with the team.. hahaha! I just want my uniform! Its not ready yet?!?!?!?! Its really funny leh.. that they want me to play for the team in the competition BUT i havent got my slacks (white pants) and my shirt (Immanuel #33 on the back) yet!!! what the F!!!! hahaha... but its fine... my team is like those in the movies, unorganized yet really good... lolzz!

I rode the mrt home and thats when i noticed a familiar perfume/shampoo fragrance.. wahahaha! I started to smile... haha! As in a real smile, not the "encouragement smile" during the practice...

THURSDAY
Im supposed to meet Farid and Syazani later today because we are gonna be forming a band.. yeah you heard me right... hahaha! Farid is most probably the drummer, me is one of the rythmic guitarist and Syazani is maybe the Bassist... I dunno who else are gonna turn up later.. just wish us luck... I havent touched the guitar for more than 2 weeks leh...

What a nice week!

LATER (same day thursday)
Later im gonna have a LONG testimonial here for Inay because its her 74th birthday today! hehehe! God bless everyone!!! We love you Inay, and we never forget!

2005-10-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

Working in Expo for 1 week... i met lots of wonderful people! miss those times... (picture taken last day - friday, Aisha's birthday)

Back to normal

2005-10-24T09:15:00.000+08:00

Life has been back to what it was since i finished that 1 week work in Expo... And i really feel empty again. Maybe its because i have been slacking too much, that i had not been doing anything with my life. I can feel time slowly passing by, like its wasted or something like that.

My family went to this annual living rosary with POSAP in woodlands church. Its was aiight, nothing much, just praying and a tagalog mass after. Fr Angel is back! And he talks about how he coped with his mom passing away. Yeah, there are far more things to worry about... thats what i learned. So i guess i can smile once again... a shitty weekend turned okay :-)

I bought Nickelback's newest album "All The Right Reasons" because of 1 song that i really like: PHOTOGRAPH! hahaha.. and its a nice album, heavy rock but not too metal... and its got nice lyrics too...

Now im here at home, going to miss another Softball practice because I DONT LIKE THE PEOPLE there... They are obsessed in practicing and forgot the MOST important thing in sports: PLAYING THE GAME... they are obsessed in practicing, in being the best in the field, in competitions... why cant we all just play and have fun without any pressure and stress. I agree that its a "discipline" kind of game but that doesnt mean that the MAIN FOCUS everytime we play is for the competition... what happens after the competition? NOTHING! So what if we win or lose? It doesnt mean anything... Sooner or later we are all going back to the benches and just wonder, "what do we do now? since the competion is over?" hahaha!

I recommend that we all should just play the game... no worries on our minds, no focus on any tournaments, nothing to think about... just play! haha! Many people forget that...

Later in 3pm im supposed to meet Sharon in City Hall... she is one of those people who went to me and handed me a survey form and she called me back last thursday setting an appointment to see me... I dunno why i keep saying "ok!" to her so in the end of our conversation, the only things i understood was, "ok i will see you on Sunday in woodlands ok?" hahaha! I dunno what the hell im meeting her up for!!! ahahaha! Coz i cant understand her on the phone... haha.. I postponed it to today and she sound very desperate in getting an appointment with me... hmmm.. i wonder why its so important... haha! Wish me luck & god bless! (i hope she's not one of those people who cheat youngsters like me) haha!

Long Time No See!

2005-10-22T11:55:00.000+08:00

haha.. sorry i wasnt updating much this past week because i was working! yeah i was... haha.. im with tami, and we worked there in EXPO... Its been quite a fun experience because i gets to meet lots of people.. and work for people.. and do on the counter work and get paid for working.. haha.. stuff like that...

We started last saturday and ended yesterday.. haha.. not very long but i get to know many new people, lots of them from ngee ann poly and a gal from changkat changi sec.. haha! Yesterday was the most fun becuase its the last day and because i get to meet teng ya.. lolzz! she's a nice gal.. i like her.. haha!

I have been feeling very bored to go to the choir practice later.. i really dont feel like im serving God, that WE are serving God, when im with the filipino choir... Because i experienced lots of BAD attitudes during church service... bad comments from my titos and tita there... haizz.. im disappointed...

Therefore i decide not to sing for the Night Mass this coming december... Im gonna sing, pray and give praise on my own way :-)

2005-10-20T20:38:00.000+08:00

Byebye! See u soon! hehe!